Untitled (online life vs real life)
Posted in Scrapes on November 16th, 2006There are some things changing here.
My presence online is going to fall.
It’s time for me to stop procrastinating my life…..the things I need to go out and do instead of just dreaming about.
I ignore the real world out there. I’ve noticed this for awhile now, but just have continued to do nothing about it…..till now.
I am not sure what the future entails…but…
I am nervous, scared, and sad
I am literally killing a piece of me….sacrificing a piece of me in order to survive.
I cannot continue to live in this virtual world that I’ve emerged myself in, least i wither away like a autumn leaf and crumple in the breeze.
This loneliness, this emptiness, is killing my soul
I just…I do nothing all day, every day.
I wake up. I get on the computer
I stay on till I get tired and then go to bed
I’m not living….I’m….sitting here waiting for something that will never be if I don’t go out and try for it
I have to try….even if i fail….at least I’ll go down trying.
You have whatever you believe yourself to have…
