Ignorance In All It’s Emotional Bliss
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I woke up today,
and took a look in the mirror,
An image quiet not myself,
stared quietly back at me vindictively.
My eyes reflected all the pain inside,
and forced me to see myself.
I swore to myself I’d always be in control,
yet now everything is anything but.
I’m numb to the world around me.
I feel like there’s nothing left to do.
Something has been removed from me,
misplaced and lost somewhere in the past.
I cannot find a place to belong.
Denied myself, denounced myself.
It’s hard to fit in,
when I can’t even feel comfortable in my own skin.
Stuck on yestuday,
no progress made today on tomorrows self
And all I can do is let go,
and drown the truth in ignorance.
It doesn’t make sense,
but then again nothing ever did.
That’s the tragic shame of a mind
that complexes everything.
I try to find something to hold on to,
anything to keep me from losing more of myself,
but there’s nothing holding me back,
and I’m frightened by the fact I’m ready to just let go.
Fade back into myself,
deny the world around me.
It’s easier to feel nothing,
than deal with these ramped emotions.
I step away from the mirror,
random thoughts erased.
“Control” has been reestablished,
and I’m lost again to the ignorance that blinds me from within.
